There was once a Saint in India, who was living as a hermit in a small hut made from grass. A couple came to him and said, “Guruji, we love you so much. We’ll make you a nicer hut, much stronger. Please, come with us.” The Saint said, “No, no, no, no. I'm happy where I am, I don’t want to come.”
After a while, the Saint thought about it, called the couple and said, “Yes, I will come with you, but only if you do me one favor.” The couple was very happy and said, “If you are asking, we'll do anything for you.” To that the Saint answered, “Let me come and live in your toilet.”
The couple was wondering, “Why do you want to come live in our toilet when we want to build a nice hut for you?” The Saint said, “I’d rather stay in your toilet than among devotees or people who are only looking for fame and glory. These people come to me looking only to end their misery, but they are not really looking for God. If I stayed in the toilet, I’d rather bear the smell of the toilet than bear the insincerity of those people... and also the smell of the toilet would keep them away.”
This made the couple realize how people are. People are searching, yes, but they are not sincere toward themselves. Only when you are sincere towards yourself, you will you find your path. When accept yourself, when you accept the will of God, you will accept whatever He gives you as right. When you surrender to His will, when you surrender to His love, then you say, “Yes, God, I believe in you and I trust in whatever you’re doing for me. I trust in your love. I don’t doubt you.”
But when we doubt Him, we question Him, and we are not truthful. Then we say, “God, you have made a mistake.” But how can God make a mistake when He’s so perfect? How can love, which is the purity of your true self, make a mistake? It can’t. It can only be a mistake when there is doubt, when there is fear. But when all of these things are cleared, when all of these things are put away by the holy names of God, which are thousands of names.. then you will see His glory. You will feel His love.
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But He also says that we don't really know what it means to be "realized" even though we say we want realization... and also, that we are all looking for happiness... so if I am looking to end the misery, and I don't know what it means to look for God (because God is supposedly everything...), then how does one be sincere??
I think sincereness means also to discipline oneself on the spiritual path. To have one goal that you are working on. Like in school: When you want to finish your class sucessfully you will work for it and when you want to get self-realization it's the same. So it means for example to do the sadhana properly. Of course it's a greater challenge, because we don't see God, but He 'is' there and He will reveal Himself, if we really want only Him.
So i think wanting Him means to concentrate on Him as much as possible to show Him "Yes, i want you" and not to let the mind being diverted by too many things. If we say one day "Ok i want you" and the next day we already forgot about it, this is not really sincerity. This might be very difficult, because very often the mind is jumping and it's not easy to control the mind or personal desires which may arise, but through the sadhana we will become more humble. It is also said that when you want god-realization, even this wish should not be there. But in my opinion one first has to develop this wish to be able to do the sadhana and to be motivated. Then after some time one should give up the wish and say "Ok God, if it is your will to make me realize my true Self, let it be." Because His will shall happen.
And like it is said "When you take one step towards me, i will take 10.000 steps towards you"
thank you so much :)
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